If u r unsure it's always best to err on the side if caution and get help. Your song lyrics could be reflective of your current feelings but they could also be shadows from another time in your life or they could just be what your mind thought sounded good together. I write poetry so I know the feeling of being surprised by what you write. I always share these with my PsyD which helps cause then she has an idea where my mood actually is or has been. Sometimes she tells me it means nothing and not to worry. If you already have an appointment scheduled with your T and it's close then I would wait till then and talk to him/her. But if you don't have one or it's not close I would call. If you are feeling at all like you may harm yourself in anyway as the lyrics suggest then you should call ur T immediately or go to the emergency room. I'm sorry that your feeling so badly and those are beautiful lyrics. {{{Hugs}}}