Oh wow, ScarletPimpernel! I hear that you're scared, and it sounds a bit overwhelming... but wow. It's kind of a really neat opportunity, in a way.

So, here's what I think.

- I've seen a couple people here applying DBT techniques in their posts, and I've been impressed. It looks like it has the potential to be really helpful (though if you're only there for 3 months, I wonder what part of DBT you'll be learning?). I hope some of these people chime in, because I have no experience with DBT... I've just noticed people talking about it here.

- You mentioned being worried about being judged, but did you know, DBT specifically has a "nonjudgemental stance"? So, if they're judging you, they're doing it wrong! Does that help, even a tiny bit, in not worrying too much about being judged?

- Groups are scary for me too. But, it sucks to miss out on something that's potentially helpful because of fear! Maybe everyone there will be a bit nervous about the group? Maybe you can sit in the back, and just sort of get a feel for the group on the first day? Could you bring some sort of comfort/stress relief item with you to play with (I've been wearing a pretty bracelet that stretches to therapy, to distract myself when it gets too scary - I love it!)? Maybe there's something else that your T can suggest to help you feel a bit safer if you go?

- The other thing about safety... if it's a rundown place with scary clients, do you want to bring something like pepper spray? I've said it before, but I brought pepper spray to my first meeting with my current T, since he was a man, and I didn't have a referral (so no one vouching for him). I assumed he would be fine... but just in case... I had it right in my pocket, so I didn't need to dig around in my purse for it, *just in the very unlikely event* that something happened, and I needed to escape quickly. It helped me feel a little more calm, because I had a plan.

I hope you can do it! I get the fear... I'm pretty much fearful about *everything* - but this *could* be such a great learning experience. What kind of commitment do they require? Do you know if it's possible to go the first class, and then bail if it's too awful?