I finally found someone who is willing to see me on a sliding scale. Both a t and a dietician. The t is totally new to me, I am praying we will click since it is $50 a visit with her. The dietician is my old one who I was seeing last year. I will be paying $30 a visit with her. I don't know if I need to tell my current t (non ED specialist) that I am seeing another t or not. Current t is the one who told me I had to pick either DBT or ED t and dietician. That was last year, I choose DBT. Now that I have relapsed, I feel that I need more support. I have gone back to eating just one meal a day and drinking enough water to get my meds down. I wish I didn't have to eat that one meal and wouldn't if my parents and daughter weren't home. I can tell that I have lost weight because my pants are sliding down and I have to keep pulling them back up. I like this feeling of losing weight and that is the part that scares me. I know I could lose some weight and still be in a healthy weight and I also know that I will never be happy with how much weight I lose.