I had contacted my previous therapist to see if she could get a single case contract with my insurance. Medicare no longer allows that unless the therapists are medicare providers. She referred me to someone else but I don't know if I want to start again with someone new. It takes me a long time to get comfortable with therapists and open up and from her online web I think the potential therapist is one of those "brief" session therapists that think you can solve your problems in x amount of sessions. I've been thinking about how hard it is for me to allow anyone to get close to me and have been wondering if it's part of the problem. I'm too afraid of getting hurt even by therapists to allow anyone to get beyond the acquaintance level. Transference, nope never had that, it would require trust.