You've struggled so much. I'm so sorry too hear about this relapse.
I am struggling too. I almost lost my wedding rings today when they slid off my finger. And they're all ready wrapped. I came home and wrapped more twine around them instead of eating.

What really worries me is your fluids. Could you try adding just a 1/2 cup first thing? Just get it down and over with?
*Wishing you well*