The point that I seem to always question is the fact you still have not found a real T...

Maybe the LC is helping you in some ways, but based on what you have shared about your childhood and or abuse still needs to be addressed by an actually licensed Therapist...

Someone that can help YOU process your emotions and working through the problems that are holding you back from having a life that you want.

Everyone has given you advice and links to T's that work nites and weekends , so why aren't you doing what needs to be done?.... At this point I'm sorry your LC is dropping the ball ... If she really wants to see you get help she would be pushing you to make appointments and or just making appointments for you If she can hold a trash bag for garbage in your room for you certainly she could just make you an appointment...... If shes had any kind of proper training she would know you damn sure need hooked up with a qualified professional.

Just seems like something is not "right" about this whole mess.