I emailed my boss and explained, briefly, why this assignment would be very difficult for me. I've been waiting for a reply all day.

She just finished the schedule for the next few weeks. The first thing she said when she brought it over and pointed out everything she wants me to do was, "About the court thing -- I got your note and forwarded it to Sam, who said he would do it, so no problem on that one."

Simultaneous relief and heart attack!

She is the only one here who knows ALL my mental health issues, and she's generally very discreet, so I couldn't believe she would just up and forward something that sensitive, verbatim!

I finally had to ask, and she said she summarized in general terms, but my heart is still pounding.

I guess I'm glad to be free of worrying about how doing this story would affect me -- and I guess it's an issue for therapy to look into why being honest with people about my usually-very-obvious issues (can't miss my scars, etc) scares the poop out of me -- but I'm still really edgy.

Candy

There used to be a real me, but I had it surgically removed. -- Peter Sellers