Hey, I'm still fairly new to this site but man I need to vent. My mood swings are getting so bad these days..i made a post yesterday detailing my depression issues. Today I went through a roller coaster of up and down moments. I went to a job fair with my brother in law this morning and it was a great experience, very motivating he's a 10 year army vet one of the smartest and charismatic men I know. Afterwards the negative thoughts started slipping in...the how much i dont measure up feelings resurfaced and the feel good mood slowly but surely dissipated. It was the worst feeling in the world, i met up with my wife after she got off work at Wal-Mart and I masked my emotions like it meant life or death because i didnt want her to feel like she was the reaso. I felt the way i did. Even after all that we still ended up having a little spat when we got home because she made a comment about how i didnt help clean up when i swept the floor pi picked up toys and was cooking dinner for our three children as we're having this exchange. The crazy thing is i'm the one that asked how she was doing lol. Man all i can do now is sip this brew and live in the awkwardness smh fml