Lately, I'm noticing that I'm angry all the time. I don't like it.

I feel like I'm trapped in a life I don't want and have little control over, no matter how hard I try. I feel hopeless. I feel abandoned because I'm not getting the kind of support I need. I keep trying so hard to make my life work, but it feels like almost everything is beyond my control.

So I'm angry all the time. I want to lash out at all the people who could be helping me but aren't. I feel like no one understands when I talk about how I feel, so I want to make them feel as hurt, powerless, and hopeless as I do.

I feel like a monster.

But the truth is I don't really want to hurt people. I want to be helped. I want to connect. But I don't know how anymore because all my efforts have failed, so I end up angry and bitter, wanting to lash out and pick fights and hurt people.

I feel so stuck, and the world around me is just getting darker and darker. Is there any help for me?