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Originally Posted by Ballerina365
...I guess I'm just nervous that I'll tell my story and the people who have been through worse will somehow resent me? Or feel I'm not worthy in their group? It's hard to explain but am I justified in going? I want the help to put it behind me! I need to talk about it more with people who understand. I need to learn that it wasn't my fault.
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Hi. I am not sure how to say what I am thinking, but I am going to try.
As someone who has "been through" worse, as I read what you wrote, my heart ached for you. I felt so angry at that man. I wanted to just hug that little girl and protect her and once she was safe, to go smash in HIS teeth with a 2x4.
I can't guarantee that NO survivors might be dismissive of what you went through (not here in this forum I don't think, though), but if they do, just try to remember that their anger and resentment isn't about you. It is about the anger and hurt they are carrying around inside of themselves.
Yes, you were sexually abused. It definitely was NOT your fault.
I think your mom totally meant well. I also think that her leaving the decision up to you put too much responsibility on you, and helped lead you to feeling guilty. I don't mean this as a criticism. I do not believe she was trying to make it worse for you. I just think it didn't have the effect she intended.
Thanks for posting your story. Take care.
