I have to say up to this point I loved my job. I'm in a field that I never thought possible of being in. I've been put down in the past told I could never be a designer in NYC. Ha did I prove that jerkoff wrong. Anyways I have been at a new firm since the beginning of the year and am able to get up everyday regardless on how I feel and give it 110% all the time. That is a huge accomplishment as just last year I lost 2 jobs due to my bipolar disorder. My bosses gave me a pretty good review about a month ago, though I was told I need to work on my time management. I agree with that as I do find it difficult at times to meet deadlines due to the **** I have to deal with in my head everyday. Anyways I have been busting my *** and was thrown under the bus by a fellow colleague. We are working on the same project and instead of coming and talking to me about his "concerns" he runs to my boss like a little *****. Says I don't think she is going to meet the deadline. That is such a crock of **** as I have been (and currently am) on schedule. Due to his lack of communication I got my *** reemed out. I spoke to my boss one on one to explain my side of the story and he would not even have it. Wouldn't let me speak, didn't want to hear it, didn't ****en give 2 shits. This is a very bad as this has skewed his view of my job performance. I was to get a raise next month and I am pretty sure it will not happen now. I am even worried about my job security. I have been through so much and turned my life around 180. I cannot lose everything again. I will not be able to bounce back this time. My resilience and tenacity is reaching a breaking point.

What should I do?? I can't focus I can't sleep I can't eat. This is ruining my quality of life!!! HELP!!!