I relate so well to what you say about feeling angry.....the foundation of my anger was a bad marriage that I was trapped in for 33 years.....& by the end, I wasn't getting the help I needed either probably because of my striking out & the anger that was being held inside & would strike out when I felt that I was being treated unfairly.

For me....once I left my H after 33 years....moved 2100 miles away & started a new life......i did realize that it wasn't ME that was angry...it was the situation I was trapped in that was making me actually see red at times. I thought that was just a saying until I started experiencing it.

When I got rid of the anger, it was amazing the help that I started to get. I have found myself surrounded by the most caring people & it's wonderful to be caring also. Without even asking people are offering help if I need it (new pain specialist). Everyone is so kind.....I was shopping at Trader Joe's in the city (I now live on a farm in the country.....moved from Los Angeles California)....The people who work there were so helpful in getting things I was looking for & when I checked out one of the ladies who worked there brought up a plant with beautiful flowers & gave it to me....said she thought it would be nice......I was so shocked....tears hit me. In all my life I have never been surrounded by people who were able to show that they cared.....& now I'm surrounded by them.

No one ever knows what the future holds.....but sometimes we need to leave where we are to break the cycle I think.....well, at least it worked that way for me even though they say you bring your troubles internally with you.....even my PTSD symptoms have quieted down to almost nothing.