So what you have to so to get seen and treated for whatever is going on. I went into the hospital recently and my family did fine, and I'm a single mom. It might be time for them to take care of you for a little while. I don't know all your symptoms, but I have learned over the last year that anxiety can cause a lot of physical symptoms and then those symptoms cause more anxiety and so on and so forth. Terrible cycle. I know you are worried to hear bad news and don't want to go. I totally get that.