I'll add, I used to want to be a history teacher in high school because I thought I'd be great with kids and would love to talk about history because I've always found it interesting. I'm in school, but now with my current problems, I feel like my brain just isn't there and I'm not cut out for this. With the way school works and assignments work, I can still do it and that is natural. Researching and writing is still easy. I just can't make the connections between subjects the way I would like. Luckily, here at college I have made good friends with a couple guys down stairs who live pretty close to me, and they want me to hang out with them over Thanksgiving break, which starts in a week, but I'm also thinking that it won't go as well as they'd like because luckily for me I snapped out of it a couple of times when hanging out with them and they thought I was hysterical and would get along great with their friends. This could be a whole new social life for me if I was to get along well at whatever they invite me to, which I'm positive I would be able to if this had come 2 years ago, when I was in my social prime, amusing everyone and drawing praise. Now I'm just a super uninteresting person with almost nothing to say.

Sorry that I couldn't put it all in one post. I don't see the option to edit and I don't know what my question is. I'm just looking for guidance and trying to give you guys as much information as I can with my struggle, which at the time is pretty basic because my brain doesn't work.
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