I had sex a couple of times in high school. Both times I was absolutely into it and thrilled to be touching a woman's body that way. Here when I convinced a girl to sleep with me, it was work and I'm honestly surprised I was able to do my part. I'm not really attracted to anyone. I said I'm still interested in the same things and find the same things funny. I wasn't truthful there. I hardly find anything funny or repulsive. I just hear it. I used to be able to sit down for hours on end and study the racing form and handicap horse races, my passion. I f'in loved going to the races. the excitement pulsed through my body. Now, I'm just watching and thinking about my money and how the race plays out. Honestly, I think it has made me a better handicapper just because there isn't much emotion tied to anything anymore, and in this case it's the money, and I'm able to make the exact play on a race that I think is right for the circumstances. Still though (haha), I'd rather have my emotion back in life than improve my ability to make money at the track slightly.