I have been on 100 mgs Zoloft for over 10 years. Last year, during a really bad time, my doctor increased it to 200 mgs per day. I couldn't take that much as it made me ill. I kept filling it, though. I kept squirreling away the extra until I had several months supply. I then additionally was started on 200 mgs Wellbutrin per day. It helped so I quit refilling the Zoloft until I ran out of all I had saved. I ran out of room in my medicine cabinet for it is the truth of that. I have PTSD, Depression, Social Anxiety Disorder with a little OCD also. I am afraid of running out of some things like food, medicine, etc. My mind is messed up. After I ran out, my doctor called in a refill but Medicaid refused to cover it. It's my fault, I know. I am still not back to my tentative version of normal after resuming it. I put it on my credit card. I am on SSDI with physical disabilities as well. I only started on it today. How long before the withdrawal stops? Feels like lightning bolts going off in my head and my ears feel like I am listening to a seashell. I can't remember anything. I stay up most of the night writing long crazy messages like this one is turning into. Crazy is really coming out. How long til this stops? What is wrong with IL Medicaid they don't think I need it anymore???