Thanks man. Have you come across written accounts on the internet similar to my "report?" I'd love to get some other insights into maybe what I can do and what other people think.

I'll tell you what the current situation is
I smoke pot maybe twice a week. Even though it isn't really my thing anymore, I do it because the people I love to be around still enjoy it and I don't want to lose them. Just writing that out makes me want to be honest with them. Not about all of this ^^, just because I've never been one to complain to others and let them in on my struggles. I'd rather everyone think I'm strong while I seek out answers for myself. Sometimes I'll open up, but I don't think I'd be doing anyone any good by telling them I can't really remember anything we did together in the past, especially since the guy above gives my brain a chance at recovering.

Like I said, just writing that out makes me realize that it's not acceptable to be smoking pot while I'm in the rehabilitation stage.
I'll Tell you what again! The first year I smoked pot, I thought it was the greatest thing in the world, but I think that's because a perfectly capable brain, which had the capability of processing everything that normal people can process, was the brain that was processing it. If I had written down everything I thought of and said during this time, you'd probably think I was the most intellectual, funny person on the face of the earth (exaggerating obviously). Now, the pot just numbs me and makes me a bit of a jackass because my brain has become so small (in a sense) that the pot has a totally different affect. Now I wonder if that's why animals such as rats won't self administer pot the way they would coke or ecstasy. Pot's effect on mental midgets isn't positive in the slightest.