She is old and I found that out on the first session. I wasn't allowed to shop or ask questions. I'm just assigned a T because that's how things are done at the agency I go to. I've been having suicidal thought for a month now and yesterday she made me promise to keep myself safe and go back to therapy if I need it. I have so many mixed emotions even before yesterday so I don't know. I'll be in class and I'll laugh and smile but when I'm alone I feel terrible. That's my problem.