The way I understand it...if you are depressed and just don't know why you are...that's clinical depression. But if you KNOW what's getting you down...that's just plain old depression...

Do I make any sense to anyone???

I guess this is why I found this site. Lots of things have clobbered me...all at once...and I am trying to wade through them BEFORE I just resign myself to it and become clinically depressed.

Looking at what I have to change in my life is tough...because I am precluded from workable solutions...

Here's what Imean. I applied to enter a music degree at my age of 63. Nope..."I wouldn't fit in with the 21 year old freshmen."

Okay...I try another university...serendipitously finding a better degree program by being forced to look further afield. Okay. I pass the board with my audition...but the school is a two hour drive each way...five days a week. I have two months to decide to either go...or not go.

See what I mean??? I know what the problems are...but the solutions are out of reach.....

At 63...the sound of the clock ticking gets louder each passing day.

I am carrying the pail for everyone. Just put my sweetheart through Law School (she's 55) and still need to help out the kids (twenties). But I can't put the pail down.

See? I KNOW what's depressing me...

I am afraid of moving into a "why bother" situation...where I'll just concede defeat. From there...my life's certainly over......how depressing!