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Originally Posted by BNLsMOM
I am a little bit functional, but I feel like I fight for every step. I slept for 4 hours yesterday after a full night's sleep. I have things I need to do and I truly WANT to do them, but then I just... don't. I run out of energy...
I have been able to get up in the morning and get my kids off to school and I have a thousand intentions to clean, get groceries, have a good meal... then I just get this overwhelming fatigue and go to sleep for hours.
This mild cycling is so much worse because it doesn't seem valid. It seems like laziness and my fault that things aren't getting done. I thought that quitting my job would make me feel better. Why don't I?
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I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time
Do you have a tdoc & pdoc you are working with now? You are definitely not lazy-I don't know why we seem to come pre-programmed with that thought but people dealing & struggling with mental illness are some of the hardest working people I have ever met. It takes us such huge amounts of energy to power through our issues & perform daily tasks & I still deal with thoughts or feelings that I'm not pulling my weight at times. I've went through depressive spells where I could barely turn over in bed & I also know what it's like to be raising children along with dealing with my multitude of issues. Take care & I urge you to reach out & ask for help dealing with all this.
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