Hi all I was just wondering what is the most difficult subject to discuss with your T?
Personally, the most difficult subject to discuss with my T is Sex or rather anything; and I mean anything about sex!!! I was severely sexually abused as a child and have had other events that were sexually abusive! So to even think about it I wanna RUN TO THE NEAREST EXIST!!! Even certain movements a person may do not necessarily sexually I see as a sexual flirtation which makes my skin crawl! I don't know how to express it but BPD people have a different way of seeing or experiencing visual things. Another thing is that my T is a male and it hard to express this in his presence. I also don't like to have him see me cry...he knows this is extremely hard for me so he often looks out the window. Be the EMDR process he has to look into my eyes to see how I processing things, he knows when I begin to "disassociate" by seeing my eyes. So I was just curious if anyone else had struggles discussing stuff in therapy.