I'm in my 60's now and my old and dear friends are...one by one...dropping like leaves off a wintering tree. The sad part is that there's nothing I can do about it. I guess you just have to be accepting and dwell on the best of what you remember. Bear in mind that you wouldn't even be upset over anyone's passing if they were an awful SOB. This means that you have had a shared love...and I am sure they know that and took it with them on their journey. Take a measure of comfort in believing that......