I cant afford to buy any books,which stinks cause i love reading. It will be more annoying when there is a Robert Jordan or Terry Goodkind book out that i havent read. Maybe is there self help books online i can search for? I have all the time in the world to do so if its free.

I havent found too many things that make me feel better when i get like this. The only thing i have to try to do is remember with time it will lighten and ill be ok. I havent learned any coping methods yet,but ive only been to my t twice now so thats probably something i can look forward to.

Im talking to my t about the depression but its very hard to discuss with other people. I dont want to worry my girlfriend over this as it seems like its a never ending cycle,what a mess. What does SH mean?