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Nov 15, 2014, 08:26 PM
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Grand Poohbah
Community Liaison
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Surrey, SE London, UK
Posts: 1,628
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Quote:
Originally Posted by spondiferous
It's been such a long time since I've been in this forum. So much has changed...and yet so much has stayed the same.  
Every day is something of a battle. Even when I manage to not abuse myself by stuffing food in my body all day, I obsess about it. What I could do better. What I'd rather be doing. Blah blah blah. Will it ever end? That's what it comes down to now. After dealing with this for 20 some-odd years...
Will it ever end?
And why is my success in life and my worth as a person tied to my size, my weight, my appearance, etc? I want to break the chains. I want to be healthy for the right reasons. I want to not be obsessed anymore. I want to get on with my LIFE. I was doing SO WELL last year. And then it all went away. ARGH.
Wishing you all a good day. An obstacle-free day. A safe, peaceful, sane day.  |
. Hi there, oh YES YES I soooooo know exactly what you mean, I've also spent some long long years wasting over every eating disorder known to man/woman, some 33 now. Does it ever go away, no, not for all of us. Mine is tied in with BPD and that I know now I was born with. We go on though and if we have places like this to come to, where we can share, then share we must hunny. Hugs. Xxx
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