Today, I found it really hard because I felt thorn between too much to do and having trouble dividing myself so I could get everything done and make everybody happy without forgetting about my needs.

The day started out well, but I started to run out of time, I did not get to do stuff that my mom's needs and my daughter was disappointed I cancelled super..I finished part on my evening sitting in a cold car drinking decaf coffee and trying to talk to my daughter who was having a crisis, while I was trying not to loose my temper or to start crying..while receiving texte messages saying so when are you getting home...Then I felt guilty about not being available for my daughter, than angry that she could not understand, than sad..I called her up again when I was more calm...8pm, still had not had super, still had not given news to my partner waiting for me at home..spend two hours on the phone with my daughter trying to figure how we can have time together because she feels horrible...even offered to go sleep at her house to help her sleep better cause she was afraid of being alone in her apartment..(know that feeling had that) finally, 9 pm, had a bugger, drove home, still talking on the phone waiting for my daughter to decide what she wanted..walked in..told her I would call her back in 10, spoke to my spouse, 30 min later called my daughter back no answer..guess she fell asleep. Saturday night..my first saturday in months where my partner and I could have spent a quiet evening...well she's in bed, I'm here writing and Tomorrow I'll half to run again ...will this ever stop.