You sound like there is a lot going right with you. Do you ever think that maybe you are ready to fall in love and partner up with someone? Having more access to sex is . . . well what single person doesn't want that? Maybe you need one special person to love you and be loved by you. Maybe playing the field is not really right for you. You do sound sensitive. It sounds like you have partnered up with some mean people. Maybe you mainly need one really good person to be with.