Well it could be better I suppose, but it hasn't been too terribly bad. I suppose first time I have dealt with that would be after a suicide attempt when I was 15. Got diagnosed with depression and anxiety and was put in therapy, just plain CBT talk therapy, it was kind of helpful sort of getting stuff out and I guess it was helpful when the therapist suggested I write some of the negative stuff in it to get it out of my mind. After a while(few years) though didn't really feel I was getting anything from this therapy...so figured I got all the benefit I could out of it and quit going, tried just focusing on grades and graduating. Then crap happened and I ended up with PTSD to top it off, but no one would take symptoms seriously so I also stopped taking it seriously and just decided to focus on going to college. Well college hasn't worked out, finally aqquired a diagnoses of bieng on the autism spectrum(I don't even know I feel its accurate or not anymore though, maybe something else accounts for it who knows). I have had various usless talk therapists since I finally tried to give it another go when I acknowledged the PTSD was interfering with college but yeah once again that therapy didn't really help. Tried Prozac while staying with some family in Minnesota, the doctor didn't really specify not to drink on it or what side effects might occur and also I was not in any kind of therapy. Well did not react well to the Prozac so had to quit that and then was unwilling to try any other meds for a while.

I have also been hospitalized twice for suicidal thoughts/intentions...first time kinda sucked, due to kinda crappy facility quite small/enclosed, not the best staff some where ok but over-all they made me kind of uncomfortable. They took me off meds I was on at the time and had me try some new ones which ended up not really working. Also the food was terrible....second time was better, much better facility with more pleasant staff and they prescribed me meds as well, one of them did not end up helping but I still take the Valium that was initially prescribed that time. And since that I've been in therapy, but being switched between therapists, and just CBT approach until I finally got a referral to a trauma therapist that I am going to now, perhaps she'll prove helpful...but hard to say for sure at this point.