Friday night I met with my group of folks who are trying to help me deal with all of this. I'm a Christian, so some of my support system includes my pastor and small group leaders. They are the people that one of the insiders reached out to, so I figure they must be safe.

Why do I have no recollection of things said during these times? There are those within me who come "up" or "out" or whatever and share information. Apparently one even operates her own email account. I kind of feel "ganged up" on, you know?

Is there a trick to knowing who is there? How many? How do you know when someone else is coming "out" to talk and can you prevent it?

My T says to quit worrying and take it one day at a time. I expected him to give me some meds or something, but he says meds are not the answer.

What is?