Things have been goin downhill a lot over the past couple of days.

It reached a point where this morning by boyfriend had a lie in and didn't answer one of my texts, at which point I sent him a lot more, and became increasingly worried, resulting in a major argument with my best friend, worrying his flat mate and calling the local A&E departments.

I've also started having some really tricky feelings about feed and my own self image, and I've been struggling to find a 'middle ground' between working too much or doing nothing all day. I've been having suicidal thoughts, and thoughts relating to harming others.... Although nothing has been acted on. And my moods are going from mega happy to mega depressed very quickly. I hate being on my own, yet I hate being around large groups of people. And whilst I like someone in the same room as me, I'm not a major fan of physical contact atm, which is putting a strain on my relationship.

I don't know where to turn to any more