I am sorry that you are not in a good place right now.

Things can spiral out of control pretty quickly.

I've read frequent stories here about what happens when someone doesn't respond to something like a text. It can cause a magnitude of problems and a flooding of texts in return so just know that you are most certainly not alone in this. I have this problem when it comes to people not replying to my emails ....

Finding the middle ground is challenging because it's hard for us to see the grey area. We can think in terms of all or nothing or black and white, night or day.

Your thoughts sound really serious.

I think you do need to see a mental health practitioner, sooner rather than later.

Do you have a T you can see to discuss this issue with them?