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Originally Posted by kmptrgeek
I'm certain I slipped into a full manic episode this time. I did something that could jeopardize everything. I seriously thought I was just looking for closure or something, but it didn't turn out like I imagined (of course). So...that's how you know you've gone too close to the sun, right? When your actions become reckless and lack reason. Now I am scared to the point of panic attacks that I'll lose my wonderful wife. My moods are just becoming too much for her, and I can't blame her for losing the battle.
Thanks for letting me spill it out. It really feels good to be able to throw things like this out to people who just know.
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I know your doctors know what they are doing, but perhaps you should share with them the emotions you are experiencing because if they knew what you were going through they *may* identify the AD as problematic. Not sure...but your team should know, in case you haven't already told them. One look at an AD and I am out of control. Unfortunately, that means I face depression more often than i would with an AD.
I hope you get the support you need. it is hard to deal with the roller coaster that is bipolar. Don't forget to tell they wifey that you love and appreciate her : )
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