I'm not underweight, but I'm going back into this again after many years. I feel I need to control my weight just to feel I have something in control in my life. I hate how hungry I am, but I feel like it's worth it..

I'm crying, because I only can't get someone who really sees through my stigma and pain and sees me. I don't have that.. I just use this as my only means of coping and that I really like seeing myself thin..