I also suffer from sleep problems for which I take medication and so far only one has worked and I kind of got hooked on it so I decided to switch. Turns out that was a horrible decision because none of the new medicines have even close to worked and I feel like I'm tired all the time. I'm a teacher so I have to be on my game all the time and keeping up that energy with out the right kind of sleep is really hard.

I wouldn't say faking it is that difficult for me. Some days are definitely harder than others. Like the other day I was having a really irritable hypo day and felt like I was always one step away from losing it, but when I came clean a few days later and told my coworkers I had a tough day, they didn't even notice anything was wrong. I guess the only reason I'm 'normal' these days is my combination of anti-psychotics and antidepressants. I say to myself everyday that I am thankful for my medicine because it allows me to live as close to a normal life as I can, but in reality it terrifies me to think that I might or most likely will have to take this medicine for the rest of my life, and even though I don't want to kill myself all the time or run around screaming at people and feeling so angry I could explode, there are certain things, certain parts that the medicine closes off to me and I miss them and I'm worried I will never get them back.