Wow you sound a lot like me. I was raised somewhat religious and am now at 26 having serious doubts about my religious beliefs. I have had a lot of doubts in the past actually, but recently something snapped and I am finding myself not wanting to live my life according to religious values. But I am also not an atheist and and have not ruled out religion entirely.

However, my lack of experience with girls wasn't about religion. In high school I was socially awkward and had no social life. When I got to college I started hanging out with some guys I met through a religious organization. I met a few female friends through this group, but that's about it. I was too shy, insecure and awkward to talk to girls I was attracted to in my classes or to get involved in activities where I could meet more girls. Now after I am out of college, I am finding it very difficult to find any opportunities to meet girls.

Yes, I also obsess over girls the way you do. I get infatuated VERY easily whenever I come across a girl I find attractive and I have this feeling that something is missing from my life until I get to have some experiences with these girls. I honestly have no interest in a committed relationship and the sex matters very little to me, it is more so just the experience of "being with them" that I have idealized. It is just an automatic thought process.

I currently cannot imagine myself being married and giving up all these potential experiences. The big issue I am having though is my age. I feel like most people "play the field" when they are in the 15-24 age group and then around my age most girls are only looking for committed relationships. And of course, there seems to be this huge stigma against a guy getting involved with much younger women. I basically feel like I am being persecuted.