****Thank you for this thread****

I came accross this poem and this is exactly how I feel:

<font color="blue">Mom

When I was a little girl
I told my friends
My mom is so mean
I wish she would stop telling me
What to do!

When I was a teen
I told my friends
My mom is so mean
She won’t let me stay out
Late at night!

When I was a young adult
I told my friends
My mom is so mean
She keeps calling me and wanting to talk
All the time!

Now that she is gone
I wish she would tell me what to do
Tell me to not stay up so late
Call me and talk for hours
And I lied
My mom was not so mean
She was being a mom
And showing she cared
Mom, I love you and miss you.</font>



<font color="purple">Mom,
You know how I am feeling right now and always.
Their is so much to say unsure where to begin. I know that you are watching over me and in my heart.
You know how I am feeling and getting it all on paper would take a lifetime of endless sheets.
I have always loved you now and forever. Through all we went through. Just remember that.
I miss you Momma,
Jilene(Jil)</font>

**My mom pasted a year ago on May 7th and it's been real rough and having Mothers Day so close to her passing just makes it even more difficault to deal with ***