I'm so very sorry for your loss! Grieving is a very important and normal process and it takes some time. You really need to talk to your doctor about this and see what he can do to help you. Maybe you can restart your meds and can you get a new line? Do not be concerned about what other people expect you to do. Concern yourself only with what you need to do to help yourself. Every person grieves in his/her own way and time. You might want to post in the forum for grieving.