I know you're probably going to get alot of clinical definitions here so I'll give you my personal experience with BP because I'm caught in an episode at the moment and can't think too clearly. For me, everything is intense. Every emotion goes to the extreme. Love, hate, happy, angry, sadness, depression, you name it, it's surreal for me. And I have little to no control over how I react to them. But don't let me frighten you! I've also been unmedicated for most of my life with this. There IS help and things you can do. I just took the hard road trying to manage it myself. You're going to be ok. You've got us for support and your doc can help you medically. Here if you need to talk.