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Originally Posted by eina
Every time I post here I'm just overwhelmed by the amount of support, you guys are amazing. Thank you so much.
My therapist doesn't agree with the bipolar assessment, she works at a holistic center and tends more towards emotional roots of issues than physical causes so I am a little uncomfortable bringing it up to her.
I do have a psychiatrist that I really like but I'm honestly terrified to try meds. I've been given a few different prescriptions by various doctors but have never filled them. I was on SSRI's for most of my adolescence and they were a terrible experience, I'm also really sensitive to side effects and generally get them pretty strongly. I think I've developed a bit of a phobia to be honest, and that plus the denial of diagnosis has been making it hard for me to take the plunge.
But it is true that I can't live like this. So I'm just going to go in and be really honest about my hangups to my pdoc and see if she can help assuage my fears a bit, even if I feel silly doing it.
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I noticed that you said you were on SSRI's as a teenager and it was a horrible experience. SSRI's can trigger mania in people who suffer from BP. I was misdiagnosed with depression when I was a teenager, I wasn't diagnosed correctly until 27, but anyway I was on SSRI's and it was horrible. Prozac was the first one and looking back I definitely went into a manic state. Unfortunately these medications have side effects, and you never know if you will experience any or which ones you will experience. I too also deal with anxiety and OCD, but thru medication and therapy I feel that I have lived a fulfilling life. I have been able to achieve a goal I never thought I would be able to do, two college degrees. You deserve to live the best life possible. I'm not saying it hasn't been a bumpy ride, and I know there will be more bumps in the road, but I'm ready even though it will knock me down I will get right back up. I wish you the best. And keep posting any questions or concerns you have, there is a lot of great people on here.