Just saying that it is nice to see you. It has been awhile since you posted last time.

I have this tangentially related question: do you wake up on your own or when an alarm clock rings?

I am asking because I feel infinitely better when I wake up on my own. I have read online that many people are like that and that alarms, for such people, are major stressors. So I am wondering if you might be anxious because of the alarm. If it is the case, I have read about alarms that work with your circadian rhythms (no idea how they do it) and thus wake you up gently at an opportune moment and not all of a sudden in the middle of deep sleep. Maybe you will be less anxious then.

I do not have paranoia, but I have anxiety, and reading other people's accounts of their paranoia, I sometimes see similarities between that and anxiety. So maybe a calmer morning routine would help.

Also, if by any chance you are superstitious, maybe there is a ritual that could put your mind to rest. Or an object. I mean - you are in touch with reality; you took reasonable precautions; you recognize that the fear is irrational - why not combat it with something equally irrational? An amulet, a special incense, saying a special phrase before going to bed - something along those lines. A birth stone, perhaps (say, you can hang a pendant with your birth stone on the door handle inside your flat). Whatever will make you feel safe does not have to be scientific or high-tech.