Hello. Is there someone who can talk with me? I feel so many feels. And every one of them is very-very bad. Not so long ago i got double betrayal. My ex gf cheated on me with my ex best friend and dumped me to be with him. We dated for 2.5 years and with guy we were friends for 15 years. Since then my life became one big hell of misery. I cry myself to sleep every night. They were huge part of my life, almost only people who cared about me. I can't understand how could they do it to me. I keep blaming myself for things that i did wrong to them. I know wont ever talk with them ever-ever again. This is soul-crushing comprehension. Nobody around me can't understand what i am going through. I feel like the whole world abandoned me. When i imagine them together and having sex i feel so bad and shattered that i don't want to live anymore. I went to therapist 3 times, but we didn't really make progress and his appointments are expensive. I feel like i am broken as a person, as a male, as a human being. My self-esteem is below zero. I feel like i ruined my life completely to the point of no return. I wont ever find a girl like my ex and friend like him. They were irraplacable and still i lost them. I am too weak to live alone without people to back me up.
Well, you get the picture of my life. I can tell more details if someone will be interested. Is there any point to live when you are so miserable like i am? When you know that never be happy ever again?