I'm sorry you're having this problem. My heart goes out to you. My mother (I think) has this disorder but as far as I know, she was never formally diagnosed. Even after she married my father and had two kids with him, she was never able to deal with her fears. Now, 42 years later, she still brings it up, and I can tell it really hurts and frustrates my father.

The other posters hit the nail on the head. With therapy you can start to take back your life and see things from new perspectives. It will take a good, long while, but eventually you'll be much happier for taking the leap into therapy.

Best wishes!

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