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Originally Posted by BNLsMOM
I had a far worse life in meds. I tried dozens of combinations with dangerous side effects from all. I was the unlucky person for whom meds caused suicidal thoughts and actions. I was never hospitalized until I went on meds. Then I went inpatient at least 10 times and needed ECT to restart my brain. I have been off meds for a year and finished ECT a year and a half ago. I am afraid I would die if I went back on meds.
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I can relate to this. Meds aren't for me either and made me far worse - suicidal. I cycle too rapidly for the drugs to be effective, and they often ended up accelerating my mania/depressions. But I have managed to make a massive improvement to my life by stopping drinking alcohol. I also cut out all other stimulants like caffeine, nicotine, etc. I also keep away from other people as much as possible because other people are a major trigger for my episodes. I hope you feel somewhat better soon.