Today is a pretty hard day. I was feeling worried at the end of last week due to some job stuff going on, and that has blown up into full fledged panic. I was hired to be a statistician at my current job. Something I could do, and have done successfully in the past. But the place was a total disorganized mess when I came in. One of my bosses likes to test me by hiding resources and things I need to find out "how I handle challenges". Of course, I don't like playing these stupid games. I've been tasked with mapping out their databases (no one has ever done it) and building out a new linux network (using OpenSuSE) - but I'm not a DBA or a Linux Sysadmin. I've never done those things - but I'm told: just figure it out, oh and your performance is dependent on this. And this happens all the time, I get hired and then get more and more piled on me. I hate conflict, so I never say "No" and when I do finally say "I can't do these things" I get threatened.

So now I feel like I'm being judged for having skills I don't have, but am not being given enough time to learn and I'm very overwhelmed. I honestly feel like I'd be happier if I had never gone to school and just stayed working in construction. I feel trapped.