Hi dazedandconfused, welcome to PC, and hey, well done on making it to see a T this time around. I'm sure it wasn't at all easy for you, but you made it!!!!
It might be that the more you see her and the more you develop a relationship with her the easier it may get if you can gradually manage to work up to going again, or you might want to give it some time and try a different T?? One you may be able to feel just a little more comfortable with???
Still a big achievement that you made it to the appointment!!!!
A psychiatrist would be a good idea though...........there's a chance they may be more knowledgeable/experienced in what you're going through and sometimes medication can "get you in a place" whereas it's easier to make use of, and continue to make use of different coping skills which you may learn from a T or from elsewhere.
And if you have trouble talking to people/professionals in person.........maybe pre-plan what you want to say to them, write down what you want to say so you can focus on that, let them know you're uncomfortable from the start so as they can support you a bit better with that, and maybe take someone with you????
And maybe try to get used to talking about how you're feeling on here too..........lots of understanding and supportive people on here............
So good on you for recognizing you need/wanting help and reaching out for that. Just try to stick with it, hey??

Alison