I just do it to survive. And I don't specifically like what I am doing. I keep thinking about all the missed chances I had to learn something useful that I also enjoy. And now I am stuck in a nightmare. I am just the most stupid person in the world. I had all the opportunities and I used none of them.
No, it doesn't exactly make me rich. I used to have a student job that payed more. But I have no choice. I tried to do less days or less hours this week. And actually we agreed on it. But today I learned I will have to do this week just as much as before.
I know it is not normal to be so affected by simple work. Everyone has to do it. I hate my life.