when I came home from my last therapy session I had a lot on my mind. it raised a lot of questions and I have been thinking about it. and I started writing down endless lists of issues that I need to discuss. things that came to my mind and made a lot of sense.
and now these sheets are lying on my table and I don't know if I will bring them to my therapist. if it is of any use or just waisted time distracting from those things we've been working on. anyway there is no time to address any of it.
I start to have time for nothing any more. not even sleep. I cannot go to bed early enough to get enough sleep until I need to get up. ironic that now I can have good sleep but no time for it.
I never see daylight because all those hours I am in an office. I went running and I wanted to cry all the time and push the other people away that were getting too close. they are always getting too close and I can smell their sweat. isn't exercise supposed to relieve instead of making you more aggressive? it made me only aggressive and desperate.

sorry for writing confused stuff.

I can't really relax and I have lots of confused thoughts.
there is a muscle in my face that started twitching two days ago and won't stop and it looks really ridiculous and is extremely annoying.
:-(