Hi Flours,
Yes it is awful to have to work in a job you do not like, been there done that!
Is it possible to keep looking for something else that is better to your liking? Thereby giving yourself a lot of hope.
Would you be willing to work on a after work schedule that would leave you time to care for yourself and free time to search out another job?

I do it too, feeling alone, disgusting, horrible and all of the above. We are not alone with these feelings.
Take a moment to Relax and BREATHE.
A very wise woman told me time and again, Do what's right for you..

Never mind what others might think!

Take care!