I'm fine with general chat a( weather , movies , advice ,and so on )
I don't mind talking about my past if I have the control and if I feel ready and even doing that I still have lost friends because I didn't say it sooner.

Example ; I met a friend on line and we clicked met her in person and we went to clubs and yes I was married and still going out .

Anyways we were talking about stuff and I told her I was in a mental Hospital for many months and she just flipped out because I didn't tell her sooner and she thought I was hiding it from her .

I hate that my name is the first trigger it's not a common name so people ask me what dose it mean and I swear my anger is at the tip of my mouth and I want to flip out and say it's non of your F ing business .

There was a time I lied about my name so people would not ask me , but I felt like such a fake . I lie so much about hiding my past , saying my parents died in a car wreck but the truth was I was a banded as a baby , who wants to say that to people ?
So just my name alone I don't even get a break .

I was seeing a T but she felt she was not a good fit for me and told me someone who was that was a few weeks ago and I have not called to meet the new T because I am just tired of all of this run around it's stressing me out . I am afraid of people . people scare me but I am so lonely tI am stuck in the house all day while husband and kids are off living there life . Everything is just messed up don't know my left to my right at this point .