Hey,
Not read all posts. Just wanted to say I'm so sorry for your loss. Been there myself and it's not at all easy. Can relate totally to how you describe feeling right now, I felt like that. I don't have any helpful suggestions, just gotta do whatever it is that keeps you busy but allow yourself to grieve as well. I did a lot of gardening, took all the anger and frustration out on the weeds. Sounds lame, but it helped. Hope you're ok.

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