Hey,

I don't even know how to start this, so I guess I'll start from the beginning. Ever since before I can remember I have been having HORRIBLE nightmares that an evil or dark presence is taking over my body and mind. In each dream I'm being chased or held down by something that I can't even see, I can just feel it. I feel it creeping into my body, then trying to engulf my mind. It's always when it tries to get into my mind that I somehow force myself to wake up. There have been times that I've died in my dreams because of this possession. It's very scary, and it's very real. I used to have dreams like this on a daily basis up until I was 29. Then it subsided to about twice a week. Now, it's about once or twice a month. These dreams began when my parents were still married. They divorced when I was 6 and I'm now 31. There have been more times than I can count where I wake up screaming at the top of my lungs and in cold sweats. I hate mostly those times where it's like you know you're dreaming, you are partly awake. You can't breathe well and you are completely paralyzed. You can't speak or open your eyes. All you can do it just lay there and hope that you can move soon, or you'll be doomed to live in the nightmare forever. It's the most terrifying experience.

I had dreams again last night...all night. I woke every couple of hours with the same dream. I didn't sleep well. I now have zero motivation to do any work today. I want to cry. I just want it to go away. I'm afraid of my dreams.